What good is this...?

years ago i asked if i could mix my medication with alcohol and the answers that i got were crazy. cause nobody knew if i was joking or not. but the seriousness of the matter yes i want to die. today i might be slightly joking. cause it really does suk with what is going on with this kids here in the valley. not my kids cause i don't have any, but kids in general, they don't know what to do with thier lives. they are just wastin it all away in puro party as they say here in south texas... what good does it do me or them to stay numb...